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Chapter Five

 I took the letter in my hand and smelled it, I remember that scent. It's my fathers, mixed with Carlisle's and Rosalie's, who made my breakfast for me, according to the scent. I looked at the narrow letters that said ‘Renesmee'. I carefully opened it, and pulled out the letter. My fathers smell overwhelmed me, the tears started to stream down my cheeks. I remember when he held me right when I had came out of my mother, he asked Jake if he could take me, but he said he should throw me out trough the window. Rosalie came and got me then. Then my memories came interrupted by the letter again, I had to read it now.

"Dear Renesmee.

The reason why you are reading this is because you are now fully grown, or you have found where Carlisle concealed it. Anyhow I want to begin by saying both me and your mother loved you very much. Your mother gave her life to you so you could live, and I gave my life to her. A world without her is not a world for me. You should NOT blame yourself; your mother knew the risks, and she would die a million times for you if she could, and so would I."

  I stopped reading when I realized I had cried my covering all wet. How could I not blame myself? I began reading again.

"Please, don't blame yourself. We will look after you everyday, and we do not want you to feel bad for this. This was our choice, not yours."

 I looked out the window as if I would se them outside looking at me, of course didn't I see anything but grey clouds.

 "And another reason why you shouldn't feel bad today is that it's your birthday! I have a present in the envelope, but don't look yet."

 I had started reaching the envelope, but froze in the acting and continued to read.

"I hope there is one more outside, that one is sort of from me to. Just let us hope that they did as I told them in my letter to them. Happy Birthday once again, and remember;

me and your mother loved you tremendously, and we still do. Even though we can't tell you that, you know it deep inside.

Love

   Dad"

I took a deep breath and tried to calm my rushing heart; it usually beated fast, but not as it did now, with no luck. It felt like the time stood still.

 The clear memories of the day I was born, my mother. My mother all covered in blood. It was I, It was I who did this to her. I killed my mother from the inside, it was my fault. Even though dad said in the letter that I shouldn't blame myself, how could I not? I remember that Rosalie came and carried me down to the living room, and starting feeding me with blood. Then after a while Jake came down the stairs with heavy steps, and then Carlisle came home and rushed up to dad and my mother's corp. Jake started to walk faster, more diathermy, as if he had a purpose. Then he came into the living room and I look deep into his eyes, then his face changed from angry and diathermy to happy and relaxed. He continued to stare into my eyes, and so did I. Then Carlisle came down, his face was twisted in grief. He said Bella was gone; there was nothing he could do. Bella had not survived. Esme went to Carlisle and leaned her head on his shoulder and he laid his arm around her. Everyone loved Bella, my mother, who I killed. Then my father ran down the stairs and out the door, no one had the time to even wink. My father was the fastest in our family, no one was faster. Then Alice looked up with fear and pain in her eyes. "No..." She said quietly. "Not again!" she said and looked at Carlisle. He looked back with fear in his eyes, the fear only a father could feel. Emmett started to run after, but Carlisle stopped him by raising his right hand. "No, don't. He has come too far; he will be there before we are even half way," Alice took a deep breath, and everybody's eyes came to land on her. "He will do as he planned to do the last time, and this time it will work,"

 I saw everybody's faces twist into pain, I did not understand at the time, but soon I would know everything about the last time he thought mom was gone. Jasper placed his arm around Alice's shoulders because he could feel what she felt, I wonder how we could handle it; feel sorrow for the lost of a brother and his wife, and also everybody else's sorrow. Alice ran out with Jasper right behind, and I did not blame her, she knows what will happen, and I guessed it won't be nice.

 "No..." Esme said and hid her face in Carlisle's chest. "He can't live without her, and we all know that. He have told us that many times, and shown us it even more times." Carlisle said trying to ease everybody's pain, but it didn't help. No one felt better; they had lost two family members.

 I looked at Rosalie, she looked back and I saw the pain for the lost, but also the happiness of having me. "I will go and clean up upstairs." Esmee said quietly and went to the broom cupboard and got the cleaning supplies. And then she walked up the stairs to clean up after the war against my mother death was, and that war was lost. "I will go help her, she needs help with Bella. We need to try to make her clean and not have the scars after Edward's teeth."  He said and then he was gone the next second. Without knowing what I did, I touched Rosalie's face and asked her what was going on. She looked at me with a surprised face, and then smiled.

"Nothing you will have to worry about."


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Chapter Four

Eight years later
  

Renesmee

"Happy birthday, Nessie!" Rosalie, my godmother, said when they woke me up in the morning to my eighth birthday. According to Carlisle, I was now fully grown. I wouldn't change more, in that case just a few centimetres. Emmett said happy birthday and then put down a brick with some eggs and bacon. But also a cup of animal blood, that's the part of my vampire side. The food would only satisfy my hunger, not my thirst. Beside the cup there was an envelope, I was just going to lift it up when Carlisle put his hand on the letter and said "Not now, later."

 What did he mean with that? What is it in that envelope? I took a deep breath and looked at everybody's faces; Carlisle, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, Jasper and Esme. The all looked happy, but behind that I saw something else. I couldn't put my finger on what it was. I love all of them, they are my family. But not my parents... I started feeling angry at myself, how could I do this to everybody? It's all my fault. I saw Jasper look at me and trying to make me feel better, and he succeeded. Now I didn't feel angry, I felt empty instead.

I looked down at my brick again and saw the envelope again, I felt my curiosity take over and looked up at everybody in wonder. "Well, we will leave you alone for a while. Come down when you are ready for more gifts. Happy birthday once again, Nessie," Esmee said and went out of my room, and everybody followed. I didn't have time to ask what was going on; I was now alone with my food and letter.

Det vart ett kort kapitel idag, för nästa kapitel kommer bli långt ^^

Kännde bara för att lägga upp dom här,
Var med i en dikt tävling då man skulle skriva en dikt till Bella som var från Edward :)
Jag kom "top 5" :D

A poem to Bella

My love to you can not be described

It will never fade away

It can not grow stronger

Because it is already as big as it could

No one could ever love you like I do

I am sort of addicted to you

You are like a drug to me

You are like my own personal brand of heroin

A Poem To Bella

When I left you

It was for your own good

When I heard that you had jumped

My world ended

I could not live anymore

You are my life

No one could ever love you like I Love you

 A Poem To Bella

I have restless walked on earth for a century

Until you came into my life

You turned my life upside down

I could not think of anything but you

You are my life now

I will love you for eternity

My hole existence I will love you

That will never change

A Poem To Bella

I love you

The main thing I want is for you to be happy

And if that is by you being with someone else

Is that is what I want for you

But I will always love you

I will never forget

A poem to Bella

You are one of a kind Bella

No one could ever take your place in my heart

I will love you for my whole existence

As long as we both shall live

I will stand behind you

Supporting every choise your making

Even if it makes me unhappy

I just want you to be happy

Haha, jag vet att det är många:)
Men kunde inte välja vilken jag skulle skicka in... Så det blev alla x)

Chapter Three

Edward

"I'm sorry son, she's gone" Carlisle said to me with sorrow in his voice, he had loved Bella too. Only I can know how much Bella was loved, I heard everybody's thoughts, and all of them were good when they were about Bella.

 This can't be the end of our happy ending; we were supposed to live together forever. "No, there must be something you can do!" I said and I felt how small my voice sounded, I was pathetic. I had let her slip through my hands, I couldn't do anything more. I had let the only reason why I wanted to exist die, why would I exist when Bella's gone? I looked at Bella, her skin was pale white and her eyes closed. "No, I'm sorry. There was nothing else I could do, and if it was something else I could do, I would already have done it," He said and put one hand on my shoulder, looked down and said "I'm sorry son, I really am. She was a great girl." He had already started thinking of what we would say to Charlie and everybody else, he had bounced some alternatives and he thought birth death was the best alternative. This is not real, I must be dead. It all has been a dream; I really did die that day at the clock tower in Volterra. I would never feel her worm skin against mine; never feel her heart rush when I kissed her. I would never hear her beautiful voice again. I kneeled beside her, stroke her hair back from her face, kissed her on her forehead and whispered "I'm sorry, this is all my fault." Her skin was ice cold.  Her life was over, and so was mine too.

Chapter Two

Bella

Breaking Twilight
(Istället för Breaking Dawn för er som undrar)

Bella has given birth to Renesmee,

But when she's out something goes wrong, very wrong.

Jacob

With a last dull ga-lump her heart faltered and went silent. I rushed to her and started pushing her heart to beating, this shouldn't be the end. Keep it going, I thought fiercely at her, blowing another gust of air into her body. You promised, keep your heart beating. It was hard to see, my eyes were wet and blurry. That monster wouldn't kill her, that thing she loved. I heard the unwilling glug-glug of her heart under my demanding hands, this is not the end. "Don't you dare to leave me, you promised!" I screamed. I felt how small my voice sounded, like a child who has lost there toy to a bunch of bullies.                                                                                                                                                                              Something came out of her blood covered lips, an ordinary human wouldn't hear.

"Sorry." Her voice sounded as if she had something stuck in her throat. I looked at her with fear, what did she mean? Why did she apologize? I was stones with my hands to her chest, not moving. What the hell did she mean with ‘Sorry'?   

 Edward was trying to push my hands away from her, but I was frozen to her. I couldn't move; I was too confused. Then he determined pushed my hands away, he broke four fingers. I pulled them right and felt the ache from the healing. He pushed a needle in her heart. "What the hell is that?" I asked, but he didn't answer my question. "Start CPR." He said with a normal tone in his voice that made me even more afraid than I already was, what was that he just had injected in her? I begun to get frustrated, why did he not answer me? I walked to her and begun to push her heart, unwilling to beat. But nothing happened; I didn't hear her blood circulate. I looked at Edward with fear in my eyes; he looked back with a face I haven't seen before. His face was twisted in pain; it looked like he would start crying any second. I gave up; her heart did not want to continue beating. She was gone; I couldn't think the thought without being angry at the monster that killed her from the inside. Before I could think of anything else Edward came and continued to push her heart to beat, even though he knew it was the end. "Shut up stupid mongrel! Maybe the venom could save her! Don't you think anything more, leave NOW!" He said it with an anger that really scared me.

 I went down the stairs with heavy steps, I heard the fast beating heart in the living room. That creature did not deserve to live, not after what it had done to Bella. When I was halfway down the stairs Carlisle came home, he ran up the stairs without looking at me. This is the end of my life; I can't live with this pain. The pain wasn't just in my head, it was physical to. I had to kill that abortion; I started to walk faster, diathermy, down the stairs. I had only one thing to do; kill that monster that killed Bella.

 When I entered the living room, the thing stared me in the eyes, it had Bella's eyes. My whole world changed, it was not the gravity that held me to the earth, and it was that thing.

Renesmee.

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