Chapter Nine

  "What do you think Alice, what should I say to Jake?" I asked as I sat down beside her in the couch, it hasn't been replaced since I was born. I would have liked it, if there weren't blood stains on it. It just reminded me of my mom and dad.

  Everybody but Alice and Rosalie were gone hunting, but Rosalie was in town to purchase some new clothes to me. Alice sat here in the living room and looked at old photos, photos of dad and the rest of the family. Photos of mom and dad together, almost every photo they're laughing.

  "I don't want to say what you should do; you should do whatever you feel is right, no one but you know." She said, closed the album and looked at me.

  "But what if I don't know what's right? What if I make the wrong choice? What if I loose the one that I am supposed to be with because I make a silly decision now?" The questions just shot out of me. But what if I made the wrong decision that will destroy my future or someone else's future? Like Jake's future.

  "You know I don't see your future, so you will have to sort it out yourself." She said and opened the album again. She looked at some pictures at me; I had e pink dress and was in Rosalie's arms. I was only a few weeks old there, but looked as I was at least two years.

  I began to dream about how my life should have been if mom and dad were alive, if this thing with Jake wouldn't exist. If everything in my life would be different. Would Jake be with me all the time then, too? I couldn't know. And I wouldn't get to know either.

  "How come Jake has been with me since my birth and not leave?" I just had to ask right when the thought came in my mind. Alice sighed in response, she didn't like this question. I could see that on her face, but I needed to know.

  "Please tell me, I already know that he loves me, so how much worse can it be?"

   Worse. That was maybe wrong word. Could it get more complicated?

 Alice took a deep breath and began to tell me about imprinting.

 It was the hardest love anyone could feel. It was the imprint and no one else. That would never change. And they wanted the best for that one, even if that means if they would only be a small piece of their life. Like Jake. He has been my brother, my friend, and he will as long as I want to. He didn't care if he just were my friend, he just wanted me to be happy.

  I felt the tears knock on my eyelids, just wanting to come out. No one could ever love me as much as Jake does. It felt overwhelming; he truly loved me, no one but me.

  I hugged Alice and looked at her. "Thank you Alice, I think I know what to do now."

Det var sista kapitlet av Breaking Twilight, Hoppas ni tyckte det var bra.
Jag lämnar lite åt fantasin. Ni får klura ut själva vad NI tror händer sen ^^

Ett nytt kapitel av Twisted Life kommer ikväll eller imorgon.

Chapter Eight

  The next morning when I woke up laid and thought of the night before; how strange my birthday had turned out. When the memories of Jake and Nahuel came back, I got a strange feeling. No, it was more a blend of many feelings. That's another annoying thing about being half vampire, you have so much room in your head to think and feel many things at the same time. I felt both happy-of knowing that somebody actually loved me- and cold, but also felt sick;  All this years that Jake has been around, it was because he loved me. But not as a sister, he loved me in that I-want-to-marry-you way. And Nahuel, he wanted to marry me the first time we both saw each others, that's even sicker. But even though all this, I felt like I still loved Jake. But Nahuel, I don't know. I don't know if he's the one for me.

  And then I came to think about Jake again, he had a strong connection to my mother, that I had understood.  But how could he love me, after I killed her? How could he look at me and not want to kill me?

      Many questions as those had come through my mind before Rosalie knocked at my door. "Can I come in?" I didn't answer, I just didn't care, and she would come in anyway. Just as I thought, she opened the door and came and sat down at the bottom part of my bed. "Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" She wondered and looked at me with a worrying look. "Yes, I'm okay." I answered. I was lying, and she knew that.

  "You know that I‘m here for you, no matter what." She said and looked at me while she got up from my bed.

  "I know that, I love you." I said. And I did, I did love her. She kissed me on my forehead and went out. When she came down the stairs someone came in trough the door.

  "How is she?" I heard it was Jake's deep rumbling voice. Oh Jake! I looked at the bracelet that still was on my left wrist, the heart and the wolf. It actually looked like Jake, as wolf of course.

  My eyes were drawn to the ring that I had laid on my desk. My gaze flickered from my wrist and the desk. Why would everything be so hard?  Why can't I just have been born in an ordinary family?

 "What do you think?" Rosalie snapped at him. They had never fit in with each other.  

  "Rosalie, you know how helpful Jake has been trough all this years. Show him some respect!" Esme said to Rosalie. Rosalie snorted "At least I don't stink wet dog."

 Then someone whispered something, something I couldn't hear, and then she turned around and went to the kitchen. She started rummaged in the refrigerator; I guessed she was going to make me some breakfast.

  "I didn't want it to be like this, all I want is for her to be happy..." Jake said quietly. He sounded guilty, as if he had broken a glass vase and got caught. "And by the way, I'm sorry for yesterday."

  "We know that Jake and I promise you; I'm okay, there wasn't that big. It's okay." Alice said. What? What is she talking about? Had something happen to her?

 "I'm sorry, and sorry if I injured you, I didn't mean to hurt you." Jake said and sounded really sorry, and worried.

  "I said it was okay, it's not something you can call a bite you know." Alice said, and I think I heard a low snarl from Jasper. "Jasper, you know he didn't mean to hurt me in any way." Alice said that obviously to calm Jasper.

 "Do you think I can go up to her and talk to her?" Jake asked.

 "No, don't. You will upset her." Rosalie answered from the kitchen.

 Jake did really care about me, he really loved me. I felt the tears sneak up behind me. How could anyone love me like him? He had been with me since my first day. I felt my love to him, was the love to him only as a brother?

   My thoughts were interrupted by light steps up the stairs, it was Alice. She came in without knocking, she new I wouldn't answer, with a brick in her hands.

 "I thought you might be hungry, so I asked Rosalie to make you some breakfast." Alice said and putted down the brick down in my lap, there was only two eggs and ketchup. Rosalie always joked about the ketchup; she says ‘It looks like blood, you can always pretend.' I really don't like ketchup that much, but just eggs doesn't taste that good.

 When I started to eat Alice looked at me like she had something to say, but wondering how to say it.

  "What is it?" I said with my mouth full of eggs.

  "I know you don't want to talk about it," Alice looked down at her hand. I saw a bite mark, and understood directly. She had gone between in the fight yesterday.  "But you know that Jake cares about you and he only want you to be happy. Even if you don't love him that way, he will always be here for you. But then as a brother, if you only want him to be that way. He Will be whatever you want him to be" When she talked she talked slowly and looked at me like she was talking to a little child.

 "I know that, but right now I don't know what I'm feeling..." I answered and looked down at my plate that was almost empty; I was hungry without knowing. "Everything is so overwhelming; it's only that I've never thought of Jake that way. I've always though of him as a big brother."

 When I said that I could almost swear that I heard an ‘I told you so' down stairs.

  "I think you'll have to talk with Jake, even though it will be hard." Alice said and laid her hand on mine. I looked at her and I felt the tears burning under my eyelids, I need to tell him something. But what? What should I tell him? I didn't even know myself what I thought and felt, so what would I say to Jake?

  "Tell him the truth, I can ask him to leave if you want some time to think" Alice said while I was thinking; she obviously understood what I thought of.

   "Yes, I will have to think about this." I murmured and poked in my eggs. "I will go downstairs and tell him to go home and sleep for a while, he hasn't slept the whole night, but I doubt he can sleep now either." She said and the next second she was out of the room and down the stairs. I covered my ears so I couldn't hear what Jake and Alice said, it was already as bad as it could be.

  "You can come down now" Esme said as she putted a hand on my back.

  "Okay, I will come down when I have some clothes on" I answered and pulled a little in my nightdress. It was old and torn; I had to buy a new one the next time I went to town. "Wait! Isn't it Wednesday today?" I asked when I remembered that it wasn't a weekend. Why didn't my clock alarm? And even if it didn't alarm, why didn't anyone wake me up?

  "Yes, it's Wednesday today. But I called in you in ill, so you can stay home as long as you need to" Esme said and sat down at my bed, right beside me. I sighed; if I had gone to school I could think of other things. Esme looked anxiously at me, she always worried so much.   

  "Thank you." I said just to say something to her. I couldn't say the truth, and then she would blame herself. She always blamed herself for little things like that.

  "We all love you, and you know that." She said and kissed my forehead. Then she looked at me one last time, and then she rushed out of the room. Now I was alone again.

  "What should I do?" I said and looked at a picture at my mom and dad. I had many pictures of them, but this one was my favourite; a picture with them standing in the forest, smiling and looking at each others. I wished they'd liven to tell me what to do, my father that could read everybody's minds, would be perfect in this situation. But I have to sort this out of my own. I was so pathetic; I had two who loved me. I should be happy, but everything is just so hard. I guess a freak like me can't have a happy ending, can I?

Chapter Seven

When we came back I felt there was something going on, I felt everybody's smells from the living room. And one scent I couldn't place; it was not a vampire, but not a human either.

I felt Jake behind and that gave me courage, he always took care of me. He was like my big brother, he always helped me. "It's okay, you will like it," he whispered so silent no one would here but me. When I came to the living room everybody was there, and also the one with the strange scent. Who was he? I gazed at him, and he gazed back. I looked away, I was very shy. Then I saw everything they had done; roses, candles, a huge cake and five gifts on a small table. Alice, ‘Course she would do this.  "Haven't I already got my presents?" I asked and looked at everybody. "Not from us, that was only from your father." Carlisle answered while Esme came to hug me. "I'm sorry, we couldn't stop Alice. You know how she is," she whispered so quiet that only I could hear. I laughed, of course Alice's unstoppable. Everybody stared at me but I just continued "Should I?" I pointed to the gifts and everybody nodded.

"Which should I start with?" I asked and looked at all the presents, on my other birthdays I got one or two big things from everybody. Now it was one from every ‘couple' in our family plus two more, I assumed that one of them was from Jake, and the other one maybe was from the mysterious man who was here. "Take the one you feel like," Emmett laughed. I began with a red gift, it was a bracelet. "I thought it would match the necklace," Alice said while she put it on my wrist, my left hand touched my golden locket that I got from my father in the envelope. It had a picture of my mom and dad, smiling, and with the inscription ‘more than my own life'. "Beautiful," I said in wonder, looking at the bracelet. There was the Cullen's shield mark, the same that was on my necklace. "You're beautiful, and beautiful things belongs to you," Rosalie said and stroked my cheek, I looked at her and I felt her love for me. I loved her as a mother, she were always there for me. "Open the next gift now," Jake said and stroked my arm, my big brother Jake. Oh Jake, how would I survive without him? He has always been around when something happened. "Okay, witch one?" I asked in wonder. "Anyone you want to open," he answered and smiled. I took a Silver gift that was from Carlisle and Esmee, it was an iPod with all the songs dad had written. One of them was the one he had written to my mother, Bella's Lullaby. "Open ours now," Emmett said and looked at me with a big smile. "Emmett, please don't reveal too much," Rosalie said and kissed him, I sighed. I didn't like when they kissed, I didn't know why, I just didn't. Emmett and Rosalie laughed and to think of something else I opened a brown and black gift that was from Jake. It was another bracelet, with a wooden wolf and a wooden heart. He helped me to put it on, I started wonder why he had made just a heart, why not just two wolfs, or one? "Now open the last gift," Carlisle said and looked at the mysterious man, who was he? The gift was red, blood red; when I opened it there was a note, ‘Dear Renesmee. I did not know what to give you. I hope you like it. Love Nahuel' Nahuel, so the mysterious man was Nahuel! Now I understood, Nahuel was just like me. The one Carlisle has had connection with ever since my birth, the one like me. I slowly opened the gift, it was a small wooden box with a beautiful pattern on. It was gold and red painted in a pattern that I've never seen before, it was so beautiful I had to take a deep breath before I  opened the box; it was so beautiful just the box that the thing inside had to be so beautiful to over shine the box. In the box there was a silver ring with a ruby shaped as a heart on, I was right before; the thing inside the box was really beautiful. The box seemed so ordinary now that I had the ring to compare with. "It's so beautiful." I said as I stared at the ring. Jake snarled deeply in his chest, I turned around and saw his eyes gaze at Nahuel with a gaze that frightened me. I started thinking about the phrase "if gaze's could kill."

 "Jacob, come with me for a while." Carlisle said. Then he put his left hand on Jake's shoulder, I saw that Jake's hands were shaking franticly. I touched Rosalie's face who stood right beside me and asked; "What's wrong?" She looked at me with a look on her face that made me feel bad, like I hade done something wrong. Jake and Carlisle left the room; I looked after them as they turned out of sight.

 "Do you like it?" Nahuel asked. "Love it, it's beautiful" I said while I studied the ring. "You shouldn't have given me this, it's too much." I said looking at Nahuel. "No, like Rosalie said; beautiful things belongs to beautiful people."  I blushed and looked away, there was something in his look that made me feel weird inside. Like his eyes regarded me from head to toe, it felt strange. I admired it again, it was really beautiful. Too beautiful, why did he give this to me?

 He took the box from my hands and grabbed the ring from it. He reached for my hand and I lift it up in his, he put it on my left ring finger. I gazed at him, and he gazed back. "What do you mean by that?" Rosalie said angry and looked at Nahuel. "What now? He only putted the ring on my finger." I said when Rosalie looked really angry, like she was going to attack Nahuel. "Leave, now." She said with a fierce in her voice. I looked at her in surprise, but she only looked at Nahuel, so I did as she said and left the room. But before I had gone up the stairs to my room, dad's old room, I met Jake. He stared at the ring, then he went to the living room determinedly, I looked after him as he entered the living room and was out of my sighed. Carlisle followed him, and then I was alone; I sat down at a step of the stair. I couldn't see them, but I could still hear them.

  "Ever since you wrote to me I have felt a connection to her, like if I knew her." Nahuel said and answered Rosalie's question, but the answer was directed to Carlisle.

 "So you planned to propose to her before you even met her?" Jake said. He sounded very upset and angry, like always when something was about me in a fight. I looked at the ring, now I finally understood; he had put the ring on my finger as a proposal. I quickly took of the ring and regarded it in my palm, it was so beautiful. Then I saw something inside; 'Two of the same kind, it is meant to be', I gazed at the ring for maybe a whole second, then I heard they continued arguing in the living room.

  "No, I did not. The ring was my mother's wedding ring, and when I met her, I felt like it was supposed to be the two of..." Nahuel didn't have time to finish before Jake gave out a loud snarl and then I didn't know what happened; I heard clothes be ripped apart, and then Carlisle scream "No Jacob, that doesn't solve anything!" I was confused, did Jake change into wolf shape? Here? Then I guess Jake calmed down, because it sounded like he was changing back to human form. Then I heard Carlisle say to him; "It is up to Renesmee, you can't make the decision for her." Jake snarled in respond and then continued; "But I love her! You know that, I have been here for her since the day she was born! No one could ever love her like I do!" He almost screamed. I looked at the bracelet I've gotten from him, a heart and a wolf. Now it all made sense.




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Bella

Chapter Six

"Wow, look at Renesmee's car!" "She is obviously trying to be cool," "I think it looks awesome!" I heard all the comments they said while I drove up to Forks High, that was the annoying thing about being half vampire. I was half vampire and half human, Rosalie said I was special. I called myself a monster. I stopped my black Range Rover that I got from my family this morning. No, correct that, it was more from my father. He had picked it out, sort of. He probably thought I had inherited the ‘car liking' gene from him, but not completely. It was just a little bit too big, sure my body was like it was seventeen years old. I sighed and jumped out of the car with no difficult, I was half a vampire though. I saw everybody's eyes draw to me. I often wished I was normal; this was one of those days.

   "Jump on, Nessie!" Jake screamed from his bike when he picked me up after school. "But I drove here myself," I said in protest, knowing he won't let me drive home myself. "No, I promised your father that I will take care of you. And I won't break that promise with a ride home, please," he said it so seriously that I couldn't argue with him. He reached out for a helmet; I took it and jumped on the huge motor-cycle. "But what about my car?" I asked even though I knew the answer to that too. "I'll drive it home for you later, and by the way, I've never driven a Range Rover. That will be something new, to drive something so big," he said and laughed. I didn't say anything; I didn't want to upset him. Every time I brought up that I'm not a baby anymore he got upset. We went in such a speed that we were home in no time at all; he jumped of and then lifted me off. I felt like a child that needed to be carried everywhere. I sighed and he dropped me on the ground, then he looked at me, worry on his face. "Your palace is waiting for you," he said and sounded happy. "Should we?" he said and pointed to the house. I nodded and we began to walk to the door. "I'm thirsty, can't we hunt first?" I asked and he sighed in respond. "Okay, okay forget that I said anything," I said sarcastic. "It's not that dear Renesmee, ‘Course we can hunt before. What do you want to hunt?" he said and his face changed after he said that, from worried to rowdy. "Deer will fit nice, I smell five of them in the vicinity," I said, I actually felt for some predators. But I did not want to tell him that, and then he probably would be frustrated again. He changed and we went hunting for some deer's.

Chapter Five

 I took the letter in my hand and smelled it, I remember that scent. It's my fathers, mixed with Carlisle's and Rosalie's, who made my breakfast for me, according to the scent. I looked at the narrow letters that said ‘Renesmee'. I carefully opened it, and pulled out the letter. My fathers smell overwhelmed me, the tears started to stream down my cheeks. I remember when he held me right when I had came out of my mother, he asked Jake if he could take me, but he said he should throw me out trough the window. Rosalie came and got me then. Then my memories came interrupted by the letter again, I had to read it now.

"Dear Renesmee.

The reason why you are reading this is because you are now fully grown, or you have found where Carlisle concealed it. Anyhow I want to begin by saying both me and your mother loved you very much. Your mother gave her life to you so you could live, and I gave my life to her. A world without her is not a world for me. You should NOT blame yourself; your mother knew the risks, and she would die a million times for you if she could, and so would I."

  I stopped reading when I realized I had cried my covering all wet. How could I not blame myself? I began reading again.

"Please, don't blame yourself. We will look after you everyday, and we do not want you to feel bad for this. This was our choice, not yours."

 I looked out the window as if I would se them outside looking at me, of course didn't I see anything but grey clouds.

 "And another reason why you shouldn't feel bad today is that it's your birthday! I have a present in the envelope, but don't look yet."

 I had started reaching the envelope, but froze in the acting and continued to read.

"I hope there is one more outside, that one is sort of from me to. Just let us hope that they did as I told them in my letter to them. Happy Birthday once again, and remember;

me and your mother loved you tremendously, and we still do. Even though we can't tell you that, you know it deep inside.

Love

   Dad"

I took a deep breath and tried to calm my rushing heart; it usually beated fast, but not as it did now, with no luck. It felt like the time stood still.

 The clear memories of the day I was born, my mother. My mother all covered in blood. It was I, It was I who did this to her. I killed my mother from the inside, it was my fault. Even though dad said in the letter that I shouldn't blame myself, how could I not? I remember that Rosalie came and carried me down to the living room, and starting feeding me with blood. Then after a while Jake came down the stairs with heavy steps, and then Carlisle came home and rushed up to dad and my mother's corp. Jake started to walk faster, more diathermy, as if he had a purpose. Then he came into the living room and I look deep into his eyes, then his face changed from angry and diathermy to happy and relaxed. He continued to stare into my eyes, and so did I. Then Carlisle came down, his face was twisted in grief. He said Bella was gone; there was nothing he could do. Bella had not survived. Esme went to Carlisle and leaned her head on his shoulder and he laid his arm around her. Everyone loved Bella, my mother, who I killed. Then my father ran down the stairs and out the door, no one had the time to even wink. My father was the fastest in our family, no one was faster. Then Alice looked up with fear and pain in her eyes. "No..." She said quietly. "Not again!" she said and looked at Carlisle. He looked back with fear in his eyes, the fear only a father could feel. Emmett started to run after, but Carlisle stopped him by raising his right hand. "No, don't. He has come too far; he will be there before we are even half way," Alice took a deep breath, and everybody's eyes came to land on her. "He will do as he planned to do the last time, and this time it will work,"

 I saw everybody's faces twist into pain, I did not understand at the time, but soon I would know everything about the last time he thought mom was gone. Jasper placed his arm around Alice's shoulders because he could feel what she felt, I wonder how we could handle it; feel sorrow for the lost of a brother and his wife, and also everybody else's sorrow. Alice ran out with Jasper right behind, and I did not blame her, she knows what will happen, and I guessed it won't be nice.

 "No..." Esme said and hid her face in Carlisle's chest. "He can't live without her, and we all know that. He have told us that many times, and shown us it even more times." Carlisle said trying to ease everybody's pain, but it didn't help. No one felt better; they had lost two family members.

 I looked at Rosalie, she looked back and I saw the pain for the lost, but also the happiness of having me. "I will go and clean up upstairs." Esmee said quietly and went to the broom cupboard and got the cleaning supplies. And then she walked up the stairs to clean up after the war against my mother death was, and that war was lost. "I will go help her, she needs help with Bella. We need to try to make her clean and not have the scars after Edward's teeth."  He said and then he was gone the next second. Without knowing what I did, I touched Rosalie's face and asked her what was going on. She looked at me with a surprised face, and then smiled.

"Nothing you will have to worry about."


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Chapter Four

Eight years later
  

Renesmee

"Happy birthday, Nessie!" Rosalie, my godmother, said when they woke me up in the morning to my eighth birthday. According to Carlisle, I was now fully grown. I wouldn't change more, in that case just a few centimetres. Emmett said happy birthday and then put down a brick with some eggs and bacon. But also a cup of animal blood, that's the part of my vampire side. The food would only satisfy my hunger, not my thirst. Beside the cup there was an envelope, I was just going to lift it up when Carlisle put his hand on the letter and said "Not now, later."

 What did he mean with that? What is it in that envelope? I took a deep breath and looked at everybody's faces; Carlisle, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, Jasper and Esme. The all looked happy, but behind that I saw something else. I couldn't put my finger on what it was. I love all of them, they are my family. But not my parents... I started feeling angry at myself, how could I do this to everybody? It's all my fault. I saw Jasper look at me and trying to make me feel better, and he succeeded. Now I didn't feel angry, I felt empty instead.

I looked down at my brick again and saw the envelope again, I felt my curiosity take over and looked up at everybody in wonder. "Well, we will leave you alone for a while. Come down when you are ready for more gifts. Happy birthday once again, Nessie," Esmee said and went out of my room, and everybody followed. I didn't have time to ask what was going on; I was now alone with my food and letter.

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Chapter Three

Edward

"I'm sorry son, she's gone" Carlisle said to me with sorrow in his voice, he had loved Bella too. Only I can know how much Bella was loved, I heard everybody's thoughts, and all of them were good when they were about Bella.

 This can't be the end of our happy ending; we were supposed to live together forever. "No, there must be something you can do!" I said and I felt how small my voice sounded, I was pathetic. I had let her slip through my hands, I couldn't do anything more. I had let the only reason why I wanted to exist die, why would I exist when Bella's gone? I looked at Bella, her skin was pale white and her eyes closed. "No, I'm sorry. There was nothing else I could do, and if it was something else I could do, I would already have done it," He said and put one hand on my shoulder, looked down and said "I'm sorry son, I really am. She was a great girl." He had already started thinking of what we would say to Charlie and everybody else, he had bounced some alternatives and he thought birth death was the best alternative. This is not real, I must be dead. It all has been a dream; I really did die that day at the clock tower in Volterra. I would never feel her worm skin against mine; never feel her heart rush when I kissed her. I would never hear her beautiful voice again. I kneeled beside her, stroke her hair back from her face, kissed her on her forehead and whispered "I'm sorry, this is all my fault." Her skin was ice cold.  Her life was over, and so was mine too.

Chapter Two

Bella

Breaking Twilight
(Istället för Breaking Dawn för er som undrar)

Bella has given birth to Renesmee,

But when she's out something goes wrong, very wrong.

Jacob

With a last dull ga-lump her heart faltered and went silent. I rushed to her and started pushing her heart to beating, this shouldn't be the end. Keep it going, I thought fiercely at her, blowing another gust of air into her body. You promised, keep your heart beating. It was hard to see, my eyes were wet and blurry. That monster wouldn't kill her, that thing she loved. I heard the unwilling glug-glug of her heart under my demanding hands, this is not the end. "Don't you dare to leave me, you promised!" I screamed. I felt how small my voice sounded, like a child who has lost there toy to a bunch of bullies.                                                                                                                                                                              Something came out of her blood covered lips, an ordinary human wouldn't hear.

"Sorry." Her voice sounded as if she had something stuck in her throat. I looked at her with fear, what did she mean? Why did she apologize? I was stones with my hands to her chest, not moving. What the hell did she mean with ‘Sorry'?   

 Edward was trying to push my hands away from her, but I was frozen to her. I couldn't move; I was too confused. Then he determined pushed my hands away, he broke four fingers. I pulled them right and felt the ache from the healing. He pushed a needle in her heart. "What the hell is that?" I asked, but he didn't answer my question. "Start CPR." He said with a normal tone in his voice that made me even more afraid than I already was, what was that he just had injected in her? I begun to get frustrated, why did he not answer me? I walked to her and begun to push her heart, unwilling to beat. But nothing happened; I didn't hear her blood circulate. I looked at Edward with fear in my eyes; he looked back with a face I haven't seen before. His face was twisted in pain; it looked like he would start crying any second. I gave up; her heart did not want to continue beating. She was gone; I couldn't think the thought without being angry at the monster that killed her from the inside. Before I could think of anything else Edward came and continued to push her heart to beat, even though he knew it was the end. "Shut up stupid mongrel! Maybe the venom could save her! Don't you think anything more, leave NOW!" He said it with an anger that really scared me.

 I went down the stairs with heavy steps, I heard the fast beating heart in the living room. That creature did not deserve to live, not after what it had done to Bella. When I was halfway down the stairs Carlisle came home, he ran up the stairs without looking at me. This is the end of my life; I can't live with this pain. The pain wasn't just in my head, it was physical to. I had to kill that abortion; I started to walk faster, diathermy, down the stairs. I had only one thing to do; kill that monster that killed Bella.

 When I entered the living room, the thing stared me in the eyes, it had Bella's eyes. My whole world changed, it was not the gravity that held me to the earth, and it was that thing.

Renesmee.

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