TwilightFanFic

Chapter Nine

  "What do you think Alice, what should I say to Jake?" I asked as I sat down beside her in the couch, it hasn't been replaced since I was born. I would have liked it, if there weren't blood stains on it. It just reminded me of my mom and dad.

  Everybody but Alice and Rosalie were gone hunting, but Rosalie was in town to purchase some new clothes to me. Alice sat here in the living room and looked at old photos, photos of dad and the rest of the family. Photos of mom and dad together, almost every photo they're laughing.

  "I don't want to say what you should do; you should do whatever you feel is right, no one but you know." She said, closed the album and looked at me.

  "But what if I don't know what's right? What if I make the wrong choice? What if I loose the one that I am supposed to be with because I make a silly decision now?" The questions just shot out of me. But what if I made the wrong decision that will destroy my future or someone else's future? Like Jake's future.

  "You know I don't see your future, so you will have to sort it out yourself." She said and opened the album again. She looked at some pictures at me; I had e pink dress and was in Rosalie's arms. I was only a few weeks old there, but looked as I was at least two years.

  I began to dream about how my life should have been if mom and dad were alive, if this thing with Jake wouldn't exist. If everything in my life would be different. Would Jake be with me all the time then, too? I couldn't know. And I wouldn't get to know either.

  "How come Jake has been with me since my birth and not leave?" I just had to ask right when the thought came in my mind. Alice sighed in response, she didn't like this question. I could see that on her face, but I needed to know.

  "Please tell me, I already know that he loves me, so how much worse can it be?"

   Worse. That was maybe wrong word. Could it get more complicated?

 Alice took a deep breath and began to tell me about imprinting.

 It was the hardest love anyone could feel. It was the imprint and no one else. That would never change. And they wanted the best for that one, even if that means if they would only be a small piece of their life. Like Jake. He has been my brother, my friend, and he will as long as I want to. He didn't care if he just were my friend, he just wanted me to be happy.

  I felt the tears knock on my eyelids, just wanting to come out. No one could ever love me as much as Jake does. It felt overwhelming; he truly loved me, no one but me.

  I hugged Alice and looked at her. "Thank you Alice, I think I know what to do now."

Det var sista kapitlet av Breaking Twilight, Hoppas ni tyckte det var bra.
Jag lämnar lite åt fantasin. Ni får klura ut själva vad NI tror händer sen ^^

Ett nytt kapitel av Twisted Life kommer ikväll eller imorgon.

  "Why should we be worried? Oh right! She just likes him, so because of that there's nothing to worry about." Rosalie said and then snorted. She was always overreacting.

  "Rosalie, it's her choice. Not yours. If she loves that thing it's her problem." Emmett tried to calm her down, not successfully.

  "Don't even start! It is our problem if she gets hurt because of him!" Rosalie screamed now. I never knew she cared about me that much; she only showed politeness, but not love. But why would she be worried? It would probably be he who gets hurt, not me.

  "Rosalie, stop it. It's not something you can do something about. It's Bella's choice, not yours. Please, stop. I can't stand it anymore! You only complain, without knowing how he is to Bella. You have never met them together. If he makes Bella happy, why aren't you happy for her instead?" Esme said. She was the one who always protected me when it came to me being with Jake; she only wanted the best for me.

  "Suite yourself. It's not our fault if he kills her by mistake when they're doing something." Rosalie said and I can only guess what she means when she says ‘something'. Now I was angry. Really angry, I have been listening for a while now just letting her talk. Now I couldn't just sit here and listen to her!

  "You really shouldn't have said that." Emmett said and gave out a deep laugh when I rushed down the stairs.

  She had gone too far now. I hadn't even slept over -or what you call it when you stay the night without sleeping- at Jake's house, so she shouldn't say something!

  "And what the hell do you mean with that?" I screamed at her when I stood at the other side of the room as her. She looked at me with anger in the eyes while Emmett kept laughing.

  "You know exactly what I mean with that." She said in a deep low voice. Oh if I only could read her mind, then I would know why she was so stupid!

  "Now, obviously I don't." I answered and controlled my anger; I felt like ripping her head off.

  She just snorted and then said "At least I don't stink every time I've been kissing my love." Then she took Emmett's hand and pulled him with her, I guess she needed to take out her anger at someone. They ran out the door and then I was alone with Esme, the others were gone hunting. Carlisle, Alice and Jasper would come back in three days; they were hunting far away now.

  "Don't you care about Rose; I actually don't know why she reacts like that. That's now like her." Esme said and laid a hand on my shoulder and pulled me to her.  My face expression didn't show anything, I was empty.

  "Why is she so worried about me? And If something happens to me, what does she care?"

  "Seriously I think she only don't like Jake. They have never been good with each others you know." She answered me. "But don't you care about her, you do what you feel is right." She kissed me on my forehead and then she stepped back a step and then studied me as if I were a ugly Picasso painting that no one knew of.

  "Sorry Bella, but you seriously need some new clothes." She was just like Alice, always new clothes. I was comfortable with baggy jeans and a t-shirt; I didn't need designer-clothes.

  "No I don't. And don't you try to talk me into going into town with you, I won't come with you." I said with a crooked smile. She smiled back and then hugged me.

  "No. Okay. You're right, sorry."

  "You haven't done something wrong, don't apologize. It's okay. I was just going to Jake for a while, so it's nothing I need to dress up for. He has seen my worst sides." I said and remembered when I accidentally had loos my self control when we kissed and pushed him into a wall so hard that I broke his arms. Luckily he heals fast, but I still blame my self for that. He was in pain because of me, since that point I was very careful when it came to physical connection. He always tried to make me go a little further, but I always disappointed him by saying no. Then he often begin to say ‘It didn't really hurt that much, I thought of other things then. It was when you stopped it did hurt.'

  "Okay, if you say so. Have fun there. I need to dust the whole house today, it was long time ago. I have had my hands full with arranging Rosalie's and Emmett's wedding." She said the last meaning with a sigh.

  "You know I'm able to help." I said and she shined up. "When I'm not with Jake of course." I added, that was an important thing. Jake comes first, always.

  "'Course! I'm just happy you're able to help. Have fun at Jake's now. Bye!" she said and went to get some cleaning supplies.

Hoppas ni tycker första kapitlet var bra :D
Kommentera gärna ^^

Japp, jag kommer lägga upp en ny twilightfanfic sammtidigt som jag lägger upp den gamla.
Och den är på engelska, jag gillar inte att skriva på svenska ;)


Beskrivning:
Bella är vampyr. Hon lever med Carlisle, Esme, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie och Emmett I Forks.
Hon har Jake, hon älskar honom och han är hennes liv.
Men går det verkligen bra att vara ihop med en Varulv?
Livet kan få en stor vändning när något oväntat händer.


Har du en Fanfic som du vill bli publicerad?
Kommentera så kan vi prata mer^^ 

Hej ! :D
Nu så är man hemma och glad ;D
Har lagt upp kapitel åtta på FanFic:en, hoppas ni tycker den vart bra.
Snart, ikväll någon gång, så kommer bilder som jag och en kompis har varit "modell" för...;D

Jag har börjat lyssna stenhårt på 2 låtar nu, som är gamla jag vet, men sjukt bra!

Chapter Eight

  The next morning when I woke up laid and thought of the night before; how strange my birthday had turned out. When the memories of Jake and Nahuel came back, I got a strange feeling. No, it was more a blend of many feelings. That's another annoying thing about being half vampire, you have so much room in your head to think and feel many things at the same time. I felt both happy-of knowing that somebody actually loved me- and cold, but also felt sick;  All this years that Jake has been around, it was because he loved me. But not as a sister, he loved me in that I-want-to-marry-you way. And Nahuel, he wanted to marry me the first time we both saw each others, that's even sicker. But even though all this, I felt like I still loved Jake. But Nahuel, I don't know. I don't know if he's the one for me.

  And then I came to think about Jake again, he had a strong connection to my mother, that I had understood.  But how could he love me, after I killed her? How could he look at me and not want to kill me?

      Many questions as those had come through my mind before Rosalie knocked at my door. "Can I come in?" I didn't answer, I just didn't care, and she would come in anyway. Just as I thought, she opened the door and came and sat down at the bottom part of my bed. "Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" She wondered and looked at me with a worrying look. "Yes, I'm okay." I answered. I was lying, and she knew that.

  "You know that I‘m here for you, no matter what." She said and looked at me while she got up from my bed.

  "I know that, I love you." I said. And I did, I did love her. She kissed me on my forehead and went out. When she came down the stairs someone came in trough the door.

  "How is she?" I heard it was Jake's deep rumbling voice. Oh Jake! I looked at the bracelet that still was on my left wrist, the heart and the wolf. It actually looked like Jake, as wolf of course.

  My eyes were drawn to the ring that I had laid on my desk. My gaze flickered from my wrist and the desk. Why would everything be so hard?  Why can't I just have been born in an ordinary family?

 "What do you think?" Rosalie snapped at him. They had never fit in with each other.  

  "Rosalie, you know how helpful Jake has been trough all this years. Show him some respect!" Esme said to Rosalie. Rosalie snorted "At least I don't stink wet dog."

 Then someone whispered something, something I couldn't hear, and then she turned around and went to the kitchen. She started rummaged in the refrigerator; I guessed she was going to make me some breakfast.

  "I didn't want it to be like this, all I want is for her to be happy..." Jake said quietly. He sounded guilty, as if he had broken a glass vase and got caught. "And by the way, I'm sorry for yesterday."

  "We know that Jake and I promise you; I'm okay, there wasn't that big. It's okay." Alice said. What? What is she talking about? Had something happen to her?

 "I'm sorry, and sorry if I injured you, I didn't mean to hurt you." Jake said and sounded really sorry, and worried.

  "I said it was okay, it's not something you can call a bite you know." Alice said, and I think I heard a low snarl from Jasper. "Jasper, you know he didn't mean to hurt me in any way." Alice said that obviously to calm Jasper.

 "Do you think I can go up to her and talk to her?" Jake asked.

 "No, don't. You will upset her." Rosalie answered from the kitchen.

 Jake did really care about me, he really loved me. I felt the tears sneak up behind me. How could anyone love me like him? He had been with me since my first day. I felt my love to him, was the love to him only as a brother?

   My thoughts were interrupted by light steps up the stairs, it was Alice. She came in without knocking, she new I wouldn't answer, with a brick in her hands.

 "I thought you might be hungry, so I asked Rosalie to make you some breakfast." Alice said and putted down the brick down in my lap, there was only two eggs and ketchup. Rosalie always joked about the ketchup; she says ‘It looks like blood, you can always pretend.' I really don't like ketchup that much, but just eggs doesn't taste that good.

 When I started to eat Alice looked at me like she had something to say, but wondering how to say it.

  "What is it?" I said with my mouth full of eggs.

  "I know you don't want to talk about it," Alice looked down at her hand. I saw a bite mark, and understood directly. She had gone between in the fight yesterday.  "But you know that Jake cares about you and he only want you to be happy. Even if you don't love him that way, he will always be here for you. But then as a brother, if you only want him to be that way. He Will be whatever you want him to be" When she talked she talked slowly and looked at me like she was talking to a little child.

 "I know that, but right now I don't know what I'm feeling..." I answered and looked down at my plate that was almost empty; I was hungry without knowing. "Everything is so overwhelming; it's only that I've never thought of Jake that way. I've always though of him as a big brother."

 When I said that I could almost swear that I heard an ‘I told you so' down stairs.

  "I think you'll have to talk with Jake, even though it will be hard." Alice said and laid her hand on mine. I looked at her and I felt the tears burning under my eyelids, I need to tell him something. But what? What should I tell him? I didn't even know myself what I thought and felt, so what would I say to Jake?

  "Tell him the truth, I can ask him to leave if you want some time to think" Alice said while I was thinking; she obviously understood what I thought of.

   "Yes, I will have to think about this." I murmured and poked in my eggs. "I will go downstairs and tell him to go home and sleep for a while, he hasn't slept the whole night, but I doubt he can sleep now either." She said and the next second she was out of the room and down the stairs. I covered my ears so I couldn't hear what Jake and Alice said, it was already as bad as it could be.

  "You can come down now" Esme said as she putted a hand on my back.

  "Okay, I will come down when I have some clothes on" I answered and pulled a little in my nightdress. It was old and torn; I had to buy a new one the next time I went to town. "Wait! Isn't it Wednesday today?" I asked when I remembered that it wasn't a weekend. Why didn't my clock alarm? And even if it didn't alarm, why didn't anyone wake me up?

  "Yes, it's Wednesday today. But I called in you in ill, so you can stay home as long as you need to" Esme said and sat down at my bed, right beside me. I sighed; if I had gone to school I could think of other things. Esme looked anxiously at me, she always worried so much.   

  "Thank you." I said just to say something to her. I couldn't say the truth, and then she would blame herself. She always blamed herself for little things like that.

  "We all love you, and you know that." She said and kissed my forehead. Then she looked at me one last time, and then she rushed out of the room. Now I was alone again.

  "What should I do?" I said and looked at a picture at my mom and dad. I had many pictures of them, but this one was my favourite; a picture with them standing in the forest, smiling and looking at each others. I wished they'd liven to tell me what to do, my father that could read everybody's minds, would be perfect in this situation. But I have to sort this out of my own. I was so pathetic; I had two who loved me. I should be happy, but everything is just so hard. I guess a freak like me can't have a happy ending, can I?

Hittade dom hära på Twilight.blogg.se
Jag känner mig tvungen att lägga upp dom x)

Jasper Hale will never be a therapist. He already knows how that makes you feel.

One of the few thing Alice can't see is Chuck Norris about to roundhouse kick her.

The Volturi went into hiding when they heard Chuck Norris DOES exist.

What do Edward Cullen and a Christmas Tree have in common??
- Their balls are just for decoration.

Dear Diary,
Today i made Carlisle feel like he was in love with Edward... AGAIN!! LOL

later, Jasper

Dear Diary,
I went to la push washingtona and all i got was this stupid imprint

du e sjukt grym!
man märker att du känner alla karaktärerna och vet exakt vad dom ska säga och hur dom är..
så jävla fint du skriver<3
sluta aldrig!<3

tack Gloria <3

Och jag känner att jag kommer inte orka vara borta från er <33 :') :'/
Men ska försöka hitta ett internetCafé, det måste ju finnas i Halmstad ;)


Jag har många som påpekat att dom inte gillar hur Fanficen slutar,
så jag säger nu att jag ville att denna skulle handla om Renesmee:)
Men det kommer komma en till som jag håller på med snart! :D
Håll ut bara :) <333

Sommarkramar
Bella

Chapter Seven

When we came back I felt there was something going on, I felt everybody's smells from the living room. And one scent I couldn't place; it was not a vampire, but not a human either.

I felt Jake behind and that gave me courage, he always took care of me. He was like my big brother, he always helped me. "It's okay, you will like it," he whispered so silent no one would here but me. When I came to the living room everybody was there, and also the one with the strange scent. Who was he? I gazed at him, and he gazed back. I looked away, I was very shy. Then I saw everything they had done; roses, candles, a huge cake and five gifts on a small table. Alice, ‘Course she would do this.  "Haven't I already got my presents?" I asked and looked at everybody. "Not from us, that was only from your father." Carlisle answered while Esme came to hug me. "I'm sorry, we couldn't stop Alice. You know how she is," she whispered so quiet that only I could hear. I laughed, of course Alice's unstoppable. Everybody stared at me but I just continued "Should I?" I pointed to the gifts and everybody nodded.

"Which should I start with?" I asked and looked at all the presents, on my other birthdays I got one or two big things from everybody. Now it was one from every ‘couple' in our family plus two more, I assumed that one of them was from Jake, and the other one maybe was from the mysterious man who was here. "Take the one you feel like," Emmett laughed. I began with a red gift, it was a bracelet. "I thought it would match the necklace," Alice said while she put it on my wrist, my left hand touched my golden locket that I got from my father in the envelope. It had a picture of my mom and dad, smiling, and with the inscription ‘more than my own life'. "Beautiful," I said in wonder, looking at the bracelet. There was the Cullen's shield mark, the same that was on my necklace. "You're beautiful, and beautiful things belongs to you," Rosalie said and stroked my cheek, I looked at her and I felt her love for me. I loved her as a mother, she were always there for me. "Open the next gift now," Jake said and stroked my arm, my big brother Jake. Oh Jake, how would I survive without him? He has always been around when something happened. "Okay, witch one?" I asked in wonder. "Anyone you want to open," he answered and smiled. I took a Silver gift that was from Carlisle and Esmee, it was an iPod with all the songs dad had written. One of them was the one he had written to my mother, Bella's Lullaby. "Open ours now," Emmett said and looked at me with a big smile. "Emmett, please don't reveal too much," Rosalie said and kissed him, I sighed. I didn't like when they kissed, I didn't know why, I just didn't. Emmett and Rosalie laughed and to think of something else I opened a brown and black gift that was from Jake. It was another bracelet, with a wooden wolf and a wooden heart. He helped me to put it on, I started wonder why he had made just a heart, why not just two wolfs, or one? "Now open the last gift," Carlisle said and looked at the mysterious man, who was he? The gift was red, blood red; when I opened it there was a note, ‘Dear Renesmee. I did not know what to give you. I hope you like it. Love Nahuel' Nahuel, so the mysterious man was Nahuel! Now I understood, Nahuel was just like me. The one Carlisle has had connection with ever since my birth, the one like me. I slowly opened the gift, it was a small wooden box with a beautiful pattern on. It was gold and red painted in a pattern that I've never seen before, it was so beautiful I had to take a deep breath before I  opened the box; it was so beautiful just the box that the thing inside had to be so beautiful to over shine the box. In the box there was a silver ring with a ruby shaped as a heart on, I was right before; the thing inside the box was really beautiful. The box seemed so ordinary now that I had the ring to compare with. "It's so beautiful." I said as I stared at the ring. Jake snarled deeply in his chest, I turned around and saw his eyes gaze at Nahuel with a gaze that frightened me. I started thinking about the phrase "if gaze's could kill."

 "Jacob, come with me for a while." Carlisle said. Then he put his left hand on Jake's shoulder, I saw that Jake's hands were shaking franticly. I touched Rosalie's face who stood right beside me and asked; "What's wrong?" She looked at me with a look on her face that made me feel bad, like I hade done something wrong. Jake and Carlisle left the room; I looked after them as they turned out of sight.

 "Do you like it?" Nahuel asked. "Love it, it's beautiful" I said while I studied the ring. "You shouldn't have given me this, it's too much." I said looking at Nahuel. "No, like Rosalie said; beautiful things belongs to beautiful people."  I blushed and looked away, there was something in his look that made me feel weird inside. Like his eyes regarded me from head to toe, it felt strange. I admired it again, it was really beautiful. Too beautiful, why did he give this to me?

 He took the box from my hands and grabbed the ring from it. He reached for my hand and I lift it up in his, he put it on my left ring finger. I gazed at him, and he gazed back. "What do you mean by that?" Rosalie said angry and looked at Nahuel. "What now? He only putted the ring on my finger." I said when Rosalie looked really angry, like she was going to attack Nahuel. "Leave, now." She said with a fierce in her voice. I looked at her in surprise, but she only looked at Nahuel, so I did as she said and left the room. But before I had gone up the stairs to my room, dad's old room, I met Jake. He stared at the ring, then he went to the living room determinedly, I looked after him as he entered the living room and was out of my sighed. Carlisle followed him, and then I was alone; I sat down at a step of the stair. I couldn't see them, but I could still hear them.

  "Ever since you wrote to me I have felt a connection to her, like if I knew her." Nahuel said and answered Rosalie's question, but the answer was directed to Carlisle.

 "So you planned to propose to her before you even met her?" Jake said. He sounded very upset and angry, like always when something was about me in a fight. I looked at the ring, now I finally understood; he had put the ring on my finger as a proposal. I quickly took of the ring and regarded it in my palm, it was so beautiful. Then I saw something inside; 'Two of the same kind, it is meant to be', I gazed at the ring for maybe a whole second, then I heard they continued arguing in the living room.

  "No, I did not. The ring was my mother's wedding ring, and when I met her, I felt like it was supposed to be the two of..." Nahuel didn't have time to finish before Jake gave out a loud snarl and then I didn't know what happened; I heard clothes be ripped apart, and then Carlisle scream "No Jacob, that doesn't solve anything!" I was confused, did Jake change into wolf shape? Here? Then I guess Jake calmed down, because it sounded like he was changing back to human form. Then I heard Carlisle say to him; "It is up to Renesmee, you can't make the decision for her." Jake snarled in respond and then continued; "But I love her! You know that, I have been here for her since the day she was born! No one could ever love her like I do!" He almost screamed. I looked at the bracelet I've gotten from him, a heart and a wolf. Now it all made sense.




Ska åka bort i två-tre veckor, det är därför ni fick två kapitel på samma gång 8)
Ha det bra medans jag är borta, kanske loggar in någon gång och lägger in ett inlägg :D

Kram
Bella

Chapter Six

"Wow, look at Renesmee's car!" "She is obviously trying to be cool," "I think it looks awesome!" I heard all the comments they said while I drove up to Forks High, that was the annoying thing about being half vampire. I was half vampire and half human, Rosalie said I was special. I called myself a monster. I stopped my black Range Rover that I got from my family this morning. No, correct that, it was more from my father. He had picked it out, sort of. He probably thought I had inherited the ‘car liking' gene from him, but not completely. It was just a little bit too big, sure my body was like it was seventeen years old. I sighed and jumped out of the car with no difficult, I was half a vampire though. I saw everybody's eyes draw to me. I often wished I was normal; this was one of those days.

   "Jump on, Nessie!" Jake screamed from his bike when he picked me up after school. "But I drove here myself," I said in protest, knowing he won't let me drive home myself. "No, I promised your father that I will take care of you. And I won't break that promise with a ride home, please," he said it so seriously that I couldn't argue with him. He reached out for a helmet; I took it and jumped on the huge motor-cycle. "But what about my car?" I asked even though I knew the answer to that too. "I'll drive it home for you later, and by the way, I've never driven a Range Rover. That will be something new, to drive something so big," he said and laughed. I didn't say anything; I didn't want to upset him. Every time I brought up that I'm not a baby anymore he got upset. We went in such a speed that we were home in no time at all; he jumped of and then lifted me off. I felt like a child that needed to be carried everywhere. I sighed and he dropped me on the ground, then he looked at me, worry on his face. "Your palace is waiting for you," he said and sounded happy. "Should we?" he said and pointed to the house. I nodded and we began to walk to the door. "I'm thirsty, can't we hunt first?" I asked and he sighed in respond. "Okay, okay forget that I said anything," I said sarcastic. "It's not that dear Renesmee, ‘Course we can hunt before. What do you want to hunt?" he said and his face changed after he said that, from worried to rowdy. "Deer will fit nice, I smell five of them in the vicinity," I said, I actually felt for some predators. But I did not want to tell him that, and then he probably would be frustrated again. He changed and we went hunting for some deer's.

Jag är med och tävlar om att bli Veckans Blogg på Thetwilightsagawe!

Gå gärna in och rösta, och helst på mig ;D

Här kommer länken igen http://thetwilightsagawe.blogg.se/

Kram
Bella